I am still alive with only one kidney. Okay, haven’t gotten over my drama queen issues…. And am being a smart ass. 6 months is a big deal in the organ donor business. I don’t feel much different than I did at 5 months, or 4 months, or 3 months – but just happy. And still very glad and energized by this whole process. Every day I marvel at how blessed my life is/has been and how this experience has enriched it. Those of you who know me well, are probably wondering how the heck I can say that after the past 2 weeks – but you know what? A tea bag quote kind of sums it up – the heart sees deeper than the eye.
I wrote last week about Gabby’s experience with the pit bull – she has totally rebounded, stitches removed today and is fine. I took her off her pain meds after a day – heck – if I can do it – she can do it! (just kidding – she was no longer acting like she was uncomfortable) However, as we got through that drama – my cat Sebastian (white and black guy on the critter page) was noticeably declining. I won’t bore you with the full details, but after a couple vet visits and a few days – the verdict was that ‘Bas had cancer, was end stage, and I needed to make a tough decision. I had him “put down” on Monday. I can’t recall when I’ve cried so much, was so scared, or so sad. He was not even 10 – way too young for a cat. Part of the diagnosis process was both an x-ray and ultrasound. Both vets commented on how good his kidneys looked! So proud of my boy! So Sebastian is off in kitty heaven hopefully being brushed 24/7 and keeping everyone awake with his purring. Special thanks to all who sent nice messages and words of support and to my friend Amy (Gannon) who donated in his honor to Watermelon Ranch (www.wmranch.org – a no kill shelter in NM).
And while I’m super sad about Sebastian – I was also reminded how the compassion and kindness of others is so important in our lives. I had the great fortune of working with incredible vet offices through both pet issues and it was just a great reminder of the beauty in other people. And when I stopped perceiving the situation with “my eyes” and just followed “my heart”, I was able to just let go and trust. I’m a control freak and this was not easy! But it’s also something that you learn in the donation process. Parts of it go as we want, sometimes it doesn’t (the repeated delays of moving forward…), but in the end everything works out. I know I’m stronger since the donation 6 months ago – not only physically, but also emotionally. One of the great gifts of this donation is that I know I can do anything I set my mind to. I may not always like what I have to do – but darn it – I can do it.
I believe Lisa is going to post on her 6-month medical review, so I’ll let her report on her status. My 6-month appointment is May 6th. I’ll be in Denver for a meeting, so decided to just go back to the transplant center. I am quite anxious to see how my kidney is doing……